NoT a HaPpY nEw YeAr

First of all, I would like to wish u guys a Happy New Year for 2009. Well, beginning of the year .. everyone should be very happy... Going countdown, hanging out with friends or singing in K-Box. But this beginning of year, I really not in the mood of New Year celebration. When my friends ask me "Why don't u celebrate New Year with us?" or even "Come out!!! Don't stay alone at house..." and I just simply answer them... "Enjoy yourself and I'm just lazy to go out." I don't want tell them the reason I don't want go out with them cause I don't want destroy their New Year mood or whatever lar!!! I really have no idea what happen to my life. I thought that I can enjoys after the stage play finish. But my grandpa suddenly fell down on the staircase. Before this my grandpa already get ill and can't even walk properly. And now, even more worst after he feel down... My dad told us to go visit grandpa once in a couple days cause all of us just worry that my grandpa will ............... And I can predict this coming CNY will not happening as previous year...