Always On My Mind

A early Sunday morning, my brother received a call from my grandma and she said my grandpa already pass away... I really feel shock on that time and I couldn't believe that my grandpa is leaving us until I see grandpa lying in the casket. I cant control myself and I started to cry... Suddenly my mind flash a lot of memory with my grandpa...

Remember... when i was child, my grandpa often bring me to anywhere he go. Still remember, there was a period where he loves to bring me for a ride of KTM cause that time I loves train a lot. Around 2-3 times in a couple week, he bring for the ride of KTM and we just spend our whole in the train. He brought me a lot of toys and often bring me to eat McDonald or KFC. What I say I want... He will buy for me...!!!

...But this past two month, he get very ill. He even can't eat anything and he change his size from fat to very very very thin. Compare to last time... he eat alot and active just like a youngster. Everything really happen very fast. I knows that he suffer a lot during this period. Besides that, he couldn't recognize who am I... But he will pretend he knows who are u...and he at least he knows that I'm his grandson, he just couldn't remember my name... Until yesterday (17 Jan 2009) he told my mum... he suddenly wanna meet me... My mum call me and I feel surprised that he suddenly remember my name. He said that me so long no come and visit him... And my mum said I going out with my friends for new year clothes. I promised that I will come and see my grandpa tomorrow.

Where knows... on the Sunday morning (18 Jan 2009), my grandpa pass away while he sleeping. I really feels so regret I can't see him for the last time... Why I come back so late on Saturday... I think...... Sorry! I can't continue this post anymore...Feel so emotional now...